A Letter For MYSELF ♥ - The Repeats

Dear Whosoever,


It used to be the best time of my life,
Seeing the green grass and the ocean blue,
Time seems not to be the matter,
As I enjoyed every second with you,
But now,
The world measures moments in the measures of time,
What has been taking over?


My heart speaks softly,
Reminiscing the past time,
How many times do I need to convince myself,
Letting myself know it's a dream after all,
The world has never been cruel,
It's just me that wouldn't answer that call.


Life is simple?
Keep it simple?
These are just words to keep me moving,
But in reality?
Nothing is simple unless you are perfect,
And when it's perfect, nothing is real,
So stop making excuses and face the facts,
It's either you give or you take,
There's nothing that called "fair".


Well, I've chose my path,
As I believe nothing is equal,
Wishing that I made the right one,
Avoid myself getting hurt for the same old reason,
But stop! My heart just skipped a beat,
And I guess it just happened again,
Broken heart is just like broken ribs,
The pain cannot be seen,
But it hurts every time you breath.
How long more do I need to take this?

FRIENDSHIP and LOVE

Two stuffs that seems to be related to each other,
Well it is.
There’s no love without friendship.
And there’s no friendship without love.
right?
But things get complicated when love is trying to ruin the friendship.
It may seem easy to choose your friendship over love,
Or love over friendship,
But which one is much more worth it?
I've been there, I’ve done that and I understand.
At the end, I realize I was doing the right thing.
And it turns out to be worth it, 
I mean how can you forget someone who gave you so much to remember?
I'm not sure about you, but I definitely can't,
I can’t say I've done it perfectly,
It needs time until I can really do that,
And I have fall down along the road for many times,
Who knows? No one but myself.
I tried hard to get a grip and stand again each time I fall,
And one thing i know.
when there is a will there is a way.
And this is why I'm standing here.

The Ugly Truth

I've been hurt enough through out my life,
But yet I can't get the real deal from you,
I was naive and got lost in your eyes,
Lies are build one after another but I couldn't see it coming,
I was blinded by you,
As I thought you were send by God to protect me,
My life has changed since you were there for me,
I thought things will be better,
But I was wrong,
It was just the start.


I've never been hunger for you,
And when I thought we were meant to be,
You leave me hanging without a word,
But...wait!
There are words,
Words that I couldn't see at the start,
But now they are falling into place,
The questions in my heart are finally answered,
They were there all the time,
Answered by people who have stumbled upon it,
And have been warning me about it,
And yet, I didn't know, I didn't listen.


Did I just slips out from the reality?
Did I just fall asleep and enter a dreamland?
A dreamland which belongs to you and me?
The dreamland has finally turn out to be a nightmare,
A nightmare which I could not stop running away from it,
But now all your lies have finally shown themselves,
You are happy to see me fallen down,
And can't get back up from this heavy ground,
But you are wrong,
I didn't know my heart is that strong,
Trying to place the pieces back to where they belong,
No doubt this ugly truth is hard to accept,
But I will rather choose the ugly truth,
Over a pretty lie that comes from you.

Just......ORDINARY ♥

Life could sounds special,
When you don't search for something,
is when you find it,
and then for some reason,
you get found too.
When you don't ask for something,
somehow you end up getting it,
and so when you found it,
you get addicted to it,
and when you need it close,
that's the time you lose it.
But when it's gone,
it's then when you realize,
how much you really need it,
how much you really want it,
and how much you really love it.
We are who we are,
we don't know what we have until we recklessly lose it,
but by then it can be already too late.


My life could be special too,
For some reason,
you have found me,
you used to place me on the pedestal,
and I really don't stand that tall.
I asked you to let me down,
and look upon me as an ordinary person,
but then you have turn me into someone special,
and that's definitely not me at all.
My feelings are hidden behind my face,
somehow, I'm bound to disappoint you,
and shatter all your hopes on me.
Next, you left me hanging,
leaving things unspoken,
I've no choice but to fall flat on my face.
And now you are gone,
but I'm just used to having you,
used to needing you,
used to wanting you,
I guess I'm just too late,
realizing what I have and recklessly lose you.
After all, this is just an ordinary thing.

A Letter For MYSELF ♥ - Out of sudden

Dear Whosoever,


Feels like it was just last month,
When you and I were sitting at the corner,
Talking about our most ridiculous scenarios,
With no harm nor any intention,
It just happened and this is what I like about,
Out of sudden.


Feels like it was just last week,
When you and I were standing just outside your house,
Sharing whatever that comes into our mind,
Just to drag the talking that we used to do,
It's obvious I didn't want to leave yet,
The feeling of not letting you go,
Out of sudden.


Feels like it was just yesterday,
When you and I were on our way home,
Sitting in the car,
Silence is what I would described,
And your breath is the only thing I heard,
There will be someday when we both are away from each other,
Will I still feel your heartbeats in me?
This is what I wonder,
Out of sudden.


Today,
Can you be bygone?,
Have you given up yet?
You are the one who showed me what love is,
You too, the one who described the worst scene to me,
I miss you before we are even separated,
Feeling afraid even before losing you,
How do I live with such sweet memories,
Without someone to share with,
Out of sudden.

White Lies ♥

How do white lies work?

Are they meant not to be hurt?

Or is it for you to feel free from guilt?

We will not know until we realized,

Words have been used, twisted and faked,

They might not meant to be hurt from the start,

But then, slowly they got bigger and darker,

And things start to get clearer,

White lies..Life is full of lies,

Do they really help you to wipe your memory clean?

Don't try to make things better,

As you are only making it worse,

It's either truth or never,

Don't,

Don't ever try to make me the foolish one,

I might be one but yet I'm still me,

And to my shame, I'm the only one to be blame,

For falling into your words, your twisted words,

I wish I was born cold,

Wouldn't care about those little white lies of yours,

Accepting it with an open heart,

Avoiding the worse that will pull us apart,

But you just couldn't get enough,

Lies after lie, those words coming out from you,

But yet, I still fall for the same old trap,

Maybe I was not born to be cold but born to be a fool.

p/s : It's just a simple write out that crossed my mind. It has nothing to do with the reality. Enjoy!=D

Beautiful Nights ♥

Here comes the night,

The moment that I've been waiting for,

The moment when the silence appear,

The moment when the mind is clear.

The day is gone,

And the moon starts to shine,

Staring in the dark bejeweled sky,

As time passes by.

Sitting in this calm cold night,

With no sounds around and no one to be found,

The world seems to belongs to you,

With no worries and nothing to be frown.

The night approaches,

And the earth rotates silently,

This is when everything comes lively,

And I could see all clearly.

The starry night is what I've been waiting,

Where I can shield my secrets in between,

Tenderness reflects and truth is unveil,

Here comes the real world, it reveals.

I'm standing here in the middle of the night,

Looking upon this beautiful sky,

With the winds blow against me,

Feeling like I'm flying without wings.

And soon it is getting late,

Sleep comes to get me away,

I smile at this peaceful atmosphere,

I just cant wait for the next night to appear.

A Letter For MYSELF ♥ - Deja Vu

Dear Whosoever,


I remember being here before,
Sitting right in front of you,
Words that has spoken,
I'm hearing them again,
I thought I've passed through this before,
The memories seems fresh but I couldn't recall,
The atmosphere looks familiar but unsure,
The only thing I can recall is YOU,
Was it Deja Vu that led you to me?
Or was it Deja Vu that brought us together?
Is the memory being misplace?
But why only YOU I could recognize?
Is this somehow a sign?
Could YOU be the dream that keeps coming to me?
Is it me or is it YOU?
All these are left unspoken,
But well, I guess Deja Vu is the only thing that keep my memories awake about YOU.

What If?

All the time we question ourselves, asking "what if" . We never know the answer to these type of questions but that's why we just have to take a leap of faith. That's what life is all about. Right now, sitting in the room all alone, I'm having millions of "What If" in my thoughts.

What If
I lived everyday like it was all not that mattered?
What If
Everything around me is just an illusion?
What If
Simplicity was the default in my life?
What If
I decided to set myself apart from the crowd?
What If
I turned out to choose to leave?
What If
I just ignore everyone around me and live the way that I want?
What If
I do not care what people thinks and do whatever I like?
What If
I just ignore all the choices I have and walk my way through?
What If
I act dumb and just accept whatever it is?
What If
Pleasing is not necessary in life?
What If
There's no such thing as important?
What If
You and Me is all I want?
What If
I get to choose the answer for the above What If?

I guess I will never know, not until it happens..And when it happened, I will start thinking "What If I could turn back time?"

A Letter For MYSELF ♥ - Bare with it!

Dear Whosoever,

There's always various choices to be made,
There's pro and there's con,
There's happy and there's sad,
But along with the bad,
There's always some good.

Some people don't acknowledge that,
And I think we should,
No matter what choices you made,
Just hang in there like what I said,
As pain is not what you only take.

There's always a reason why you made that choice,
You could think that they might not have a clue,
But what's going through,
You are the only one who knew.

Whatever you are going through,
Stay tough, Stay strong and be true,
Life still goes on like a race,
Keep it real, face it real,
And there's nothing to be afraid.

Always remember there's something you will gain whenever you lose,
Although usually lesson is what you get and that's what we have always go through,
Sometimes life does not go the way you want,
Bare with it and never feel sorry with it,
As it will all be over soon,
It's just the time that matters to you.

So don't mope around,
Bare with it and stay within,
As hope is always around, waiting for you to be found.

=)

How We Used To Be!

It's just another poem that cross my mind.

Day one has never been easy for me to know you,
Day two is the start for me to get close to you,
Day three is the day that I start to accept you,

Day four it has change to a day which I can never wait for,
Day five is the day that you have turned to be my routine,
Day six is a day which I cant stop thinking of you,
While day seven is the hardest day as I can't live without missing you.

Each day represents weeks or months that we have been together,
Talking, laughing, playing, and bitching are what we used to do,
But no matter how many days, weeks or months we have been through,
Things will still change,
It's just not how we used to be or how we used to do.

I remember how you say our friendship will last forever,
I gave my heart out, trusting each and every words that came out,
It never crossed my mind that one day we will be like this,
Oh well, maybe this is the Day EIGHT that I've missed.

My mornings are getting colder,
My nights are getting wrestles,
I will never stop thinking about the day I might have to say it, 
the day that I might have to say "That's it!" .

Right now I just can't stop thinking what are all these about,
Thinking about the old you and the old me bitching around,
I just miss us as I remember how we used to be,
When nothing else matter but only you and me.

- Emotion Overdose -

It was April I remember when I first met you,
You came into my life as a total stranger,
But my heart asked me to prepare,
To accept you to be a part of my life.

It was May and June I remember,
Something happened and changes my life,
Asking me to give up some friends of mine,
Maybe it's the time where I leave some space
for someone new in my life.

It was July and August I remember,
When we all starts to get along,
With the laughters and jokes around,
It brightens up my days even when you are not around.

It was September that came along,
Placing you in my heart where you belong,
Laughter is not only what we share,
Secrets and promises come along,
Honesty is what we are looking for.

And now it's already October,
When all things turns upside down,
Well, maybe it's not what I expected,
But I'm all prepared again,
Waiting for something different to happen.

November and December is what I'm waiting for,
Waiting for something that changes my life,
Waiting for something to bring me back,
Back to July and August or even September,
Where it's the time that I love most to belong.

A Letter For MYSELF ♥

Dear Whosoever,

Today,
It’s yesterday,
All over again,
Just with a different name.

Today,
Watching daylight rise over these quiet hills,
Makes living seem so worthwhile,
The way the sun rises it's so delicately,
Seems to melt away my problems,
And fill me with thoughts of inner peace,
But things seems to be so fake,
So confused, yet perfectly clear,
Thoughts of joy, visions of fear,

Today,
It's all about the little things,
That you don't even notice you say,
I commit them all to memory,
They make my whole day,
The little things that no one has ever bothered,
To say to me before,
The things I never thought,
That I was worth enough to be told,
And everything about us as a good thing,
I want you to be happy,
And this is what I want to do now.

Today,
Or maybe not only today,
Seems like a dream to me,
Never been real as it before,
But nothing is important as for once in my life,
All these, seems to be alright for me.

Copyright - kRystLe-NOTyOu ♥