One blue Saturday! Started my last day in the month June feeling down and moody. Oh well.. I guess I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
Forget whatever I'm moody about but what I'm trying to blog is I'm actually blessed with friends that love me so much. I'm happy to have them and this is how they cheer me up when they know I'm down =)
♥
Just right after this message, I received an email. And he did make my first smile of the day! =)
4 days ago, I was down with flu, sore throat and fever. That is why I'm the sleeping panda. Then I had Maggi for my lunch and now I'm the 4 hours later Panda! XD
*smell my foot!!*
Thanks for all the supports and the love you guys given me..really appreciate it and you guys really cheer me up!!! Love you tonnes! ♥
Looking back at the very last post that I blogged, it was about half year ago. I guess it's time for me to start all over again. I miss blogging. Yes I do but I'm just lazy, I remember I started blogging so that I can move on from my past relationship. Looking back at those old posts, I do look silly, don't I? Anyway, new post, new start, new beginning. Move on is what I should do. Let's start with a song, simple but yet it brings out a thousand words.
If you go through the lyrics of "Distance", this song really touches my heart. How many of you really found the perfect one? I don't mean that the love you all having now is not true but how much did it hit the point that you all will say "She/He is the right one! I'm so gonna have her/him and no one else in my life!". Well, I bet everyone did say this line before and the next few months it turns out to be someone else?
Well, I'm someone realistic. Maybe because I've been disappointed for few times, I don't really believe in fairy tales anymore. Loving someone is not easy. Loving someone at a correct timing is even harder. And not everyone will have the chance to do it. So why not appreciate what you have? What you really like? And what you really love?
"Distance" is a song about loving someone at the wrong time in your life. It could be too soon or it could be too late, but never the less it's about being around the one whom your heart longs for but without showing your true feelings to them. So what can you do if you sit in such situation?
Keep your distance?
The sun is filling up the room,
and I can hear you dreaming.
Do you feel the way I do? Right now.
I wish we would just give up,
'cause the best part is falling.
Call it anything but love.
And I will make sure to keep my distance.
Say I love you, and you're not listening.
And how long can we keep this up? up, up.
Please don't stand so close to me,
I'm having trouble breathing.
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now.
I give you everything I am, all my broken heartbeats, until I know you'll understand.
Where has all the white horse been? Where are all the fairy tales that each and every girl has been dreaming of? Is it our fault for being too naive and get into a nightmare? There's nothing such as " I like you but... I like her too" . Most of us are being pulled down with the choices given by others, but is that what you really want? They certainly have the right to give us choices, and so do we. Why do we have to please them? Do we have to be controlled by them just because we like them more than they do? Never be a fool to LOVE although it is always easier to be said than done. Somehow, I still believe, one day..I will be a princess to someone, someone who will be perfectly fit into my fairy tale. I've just got to wait for the right time...just a little longer..... =) Ladies, please make the right choice. Don't be a fool and be just like Taylor! Cheers to all single ladies in the world! XD
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance My mistake, I didn't know to be in love You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now.
Once a year? Is it me or is it my luck? People often said what comes around goes around, but what have I done that I deserved this? I wanted to curse them badly, but I guess I'm too tired. Those scenes still stuck in my head and I remember clearly how my hand tremble searching for contacts through my phonebook. And yes..thank God, my phone was still with me!
Tonight, two Malay guys on bike, smashed my car's window and took my handbag away while I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green. Great night I had huh? At that moment, my heart was too heavy to breath and my mind was too messy to think. Even now.
Currently, I'm fine, just a few small scratches on my back waist. I'm mentally tired, thinking why I've to undergo all this all over again when I thought I've been better. Maybe I should say, this incident has bring me down again after a year of building up myself. Please do FML because I really don't understand why does this happen to me again. Haihhh..enough of worries. Let me free!
Anyway, thanks to all my bosses and colleagues. They have been caring enough. I know I made my family worried about me. Sighhhh.. I just hope I could have one big bear hug right now. I couldn't sleep, and I feel like hugging you to bed now. Can I? AIHHHHHH....
